Nothing to do

I've been home a couple of days this week with a sick teenager. He doesn't really need me at home but it is my last bit of chance to take care of him before he doesn't need me at all. Three out of four of my kids have had the flu in the last week. None of them thought they needed to get a flu shot. Next year will be different.

What I have been wondering though, through this time, is why I can't get much done when I have lots of time available. I have basically just been existing through these days doing only the basics. A little laundry(not much really- it is sitting at the top of the stairs waiting to go to the laundry room), some cooking etc. But I am not using the time I always long for to work on any projects or crafts. I am just hanging around waiting to be needed.

When life is hectic, the store is busy, the business office is backed up, the youngest still needs rides to his activities, I can find time to create or make progress on something. But with these days of just being available, I do nothing for long periods of time.

The conclusion I have come to is that I am addicted to being busy. Without the rush, I fall into a feeling of unwellness. I sleep late, and accomplish nothing during the day. I am not sick but I am acting as if I am. I don't go to the farm. I am content to let my husband feed the goats. Afterall he doesn't want to be around the germs anyway I say to myself. I thrive on my routine. Getting up early to get the kids to school. Hurrying home to feed the goats. Get a bit of office work done before going to the store for the day.

Here's to health.

Janet